Thursday, February 6, 2014
Chris... I still can't believe you're gone. It seems so permanent now that we've all gone back to our day to day lives but It seems I'm missing you more than ever. Although you're in a much better place, I can't help but be selfish and wish you were still here, so I can tell you just how much you mean to me! There's nobody like you Chris. You're infectious laugh, you're bear hugs that were borderline suffocating, your huge heart..... How am I ever going to get over losing you? The truth is, I'm not! I guess it's taken a while to post something BC I didn't want it to seem real...... There's not a period of my childhood that you're not apart of. I can visualize so clearly the good old days. We were naive to the things that really mattered but all that mattered was us and our time we spent together..... Quite possibly the best times of my life! I'm sorry I never responded to you when you reached out to me recently, that was wrong of me to ignore you...... How I wish I could go back, even if all I said was I love you! You will forever be in my heart Chris! I'm happy you're at peace now...... You always deserved to be happy and now maybe you found it, true happiness. No more fighting. Tell grandma I love her.... She always loved hearing me say that!!!!! I love you forever Chris!
